Wednesday, May 25, 2016

Creativity Calls to Creativity: Secondborn's "Carrie" Video

Creativity calls to creativity. When someone -- or some people - you know manage to pull off a lovely, glorious creative feat, you're at once filled with dramatic excitement and a tiny tinge of jealousy. You know how good it feels to create something, and, if you're a creative worth anything, you're genuinely happy for whoever pulled it off.

And you admire them, because you know how much work and time and thought and heart -- and sometimes heartbreak -- was involved.

And you're just a little jealous, too, because no creative ever saw a thing created and didn't want to create something themselves. At least, not this creative. It's not the green-eyed monster sort of jealousy. It's the wide-eyed, appreciative jealousy that says "you have done this awesome thing, and I enjoyed it so much, and it makes me want to do my own awesome thing." Not create the same thing, but something different.

For me, the highest praise I can give any creative endeavor is that it spurs me on to create something myself. I read wonderful books, and I want to write -- not write like the person I just read, but write my own words. I hear catchy tunes, and I want to write stories and poems. I watch movies, and I want to write books. I see artwork, and I want to write sentences that catch in the memory and haunt the soul.

I saw the video for Secondborn's upcoming release, "Carrie," and I wanted to write.

I got an early look at the video because my brother-in-law Lee is the band's drummer and my sister is the manager, and I cannot wait to be able to link to it here. First, because it is awesome and fun and features a timeless, catchy song. Second, because it will make you want to go out and be awesome at whatever thing you do.

The video and song officially release on June 3. In the meantime, you can wet your creative whistle with this trailer.


Updated with link to "Carrie." 
Go now, and watch it!





Thursday, April 21, 2016

All my blood is heroin. . .or cookies

I'm writing.

Really, I am.

I'm mostly writing paid words, but I'm also writing fiction words. And I'm probably going to miss the "write a novel this month deadline" by two or four weeks. But deadlines have always been my frenemy, and it's about the war, not the battle, people.

And a war is definitely waging over here. As soon as I announced my grand intentions, the universe was all over it. We had a two-day power outage. I was scheduled to take a car full of youth to a weekend retreat, and everything went wrong the day before (though the retreat itself was lovely and awesome and inspiring, and I'll write about that another time).

The monsters of finance and mortgage are stalking me ever closer, and I'm writing my fingers to the bone to help our household make ends meet after two years of job issues and health issues and life-in-general issues. We have an 11-month old in the house, and as he inches toward his first birthday, he becomes increasingly the adventuresome, belligerent toddler, taking more energy and attention. And he's awfully cute, so you really want to give him that attention. We have a 15-year old in the house, and thankfully, he's very self sufficient. But he still needs things, and he can't yet drive himself.

And really, life in general is sort of misty and questionable right now -- not just for me, I know -- and not all the lights are working properly.

And perhaps I really am going insane.

The other day, I asked Chris if he would score me some speed, because maybe on drugs I could get all the things done in less of the hours. He said "You  might need drugs, but those are the wrong ones." So, I'm guessing that's a no.

In the same day, my teenage son looked at me as I was doing or saying something in the kitchen that, apparently, was weird. He said, "It's possible all your blood is heroin."

The consensus seems to be that I'm so screwed up that I'm either in need of drugs that aren't speed or that I am, in fact, drugs incarnate.

So, I'm settling for eating popcorn or cookies and typing more words and exchanging Facebook messages with people who understand the dilemma of being creative and also the dilemma of cookies.

It is April 21, and I have 9 days and around 33,000 words to go (plus many more paid words that don't count toward the novel). And I'll be late. But it will be awesome when I arrive.


Saturday, April 2, 2016

I invite you to watch me go insane...I mean, write a novel.

If 2015 was the year that slayed with a thousands cuts, 2016 appears to be the year of the long recovery. Part of that recovery seems to be the realization that dreams don't become reality if you're too afraid or too caught up in current reality to take the first steps. And that's where I am today: caught up in current reality, treading water -- sometimes desperately -- and dreaming.

In the past two years, we've had a baby, I've dealt with a pregnancy-related heart condition, and my husband has been between jobs and starting his own business. Consequently, we've run through what savings we had, piled up the medical bills, and dealt with the overall increased expenses of adding another person to the household. I've spent most of the year just trying to find enough time between paid freelancing gigs, youth ministry work, and the requirements of family and house to take a bath or read part of a good book. And none of that has changed, but my perspective has shifted recently.

My friend Missy, who is also a freelance writer with kids and obligations and never enough time in the day for a shower, much less a dream, recently made a public announcement. I knew she'd been considering it and working a little on it for a while, but she put it out there: she's launching her own food blog on May 1. Like me, Missy has been working -- sometimes unceasingly -- for years to make ends meet by writing words for other people. She doesn't have extra time to do something that doesn't bring in money right away, but she's making the time because she knows it will make her happier and she's willing to work hard for a future where she has more freedom in what she writes. And she put a big public date on it, because it's sometimes the only way you can force yourself to start taking all those steps that bring you slowly, excitingly, sometimes painfully ever closer to your dream.

This post is my big, public stamp. The signpost that I hope will point those steps in the right direction throughout the next month. I've signed up for Camp NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month) for April.

For those that don't know, NaNoWriMo is in November, but the program is run in virtual camp format in April and June. I've been assigned a virtual cabin with writing cabin mates. I have a goal: 50,000 words of fiction by the end of this month. That's 50,000 on top of the tens of thousands I write for clients and pay each month -- after all, following your dream doesn't keep the lights on or the children fed.

I receive pep talks via email from the camp counselors, and I'm sure I'll get as much sleep as everyone always got at summer camp. But I'm ready to do this. And I'd love it if you followed along with me.

I'm working on a middle grade (possibly YA) contemporary fantasy novel. It doesn't have a name yet. It barely has a plot -- it's currently a wispy piece of thought floating through the world, but by the end of the month, I hope it will be a messy, typo-ridden, glorious first draft.

Last time I made big plans known to anyone, my world exploded. I've also been burning the candle a little too hotly lately, and I recently told my friend Keith that I probably needed a sabbatical more than anything else. But instead, I'm going to write a novel. Or go insane. Either way, hopefully it will be entertaining.

I told Keith about the plan earlier today, and he said maybe this was just the push I needed to get going. Either he is right, or the universe will actually kill me this time around. To that, he replied that at least I'd get my sabbatical.

So, whether you are a writer, a reader, or my sister, I hope you join me through this mad spring month. We'll write, we'll read, we'll laugh, we'll weep. I might go insane. Write along with me, or cheer me through the process!

It's April 2, and I have 29 days and 50,000 words to go.